sweet september

PICTURES

2012-02-11T00:50:00.000+08:00

WHAT WAS I THNKING!!!

2012-02-10T23:13:00.005+08:00

WEDNESDAY, SEPTEMBER 7, 2011 on this date itself .

I was thinking of jumping of the school building , crazy right,I KNOW.WHY ! but it did. my mind is being mental without me knowing really.
And NO i did not do anything crazy, thank goodness.REALLY .I can't really believe it myself. like seriously i am not really the suicide type, i am more random and loving and caring and brutal of someone disturb my family in anyway. but yet life have been stress and too much to think in my head that is whats up with me . seriously. but no biggie.I reckon it's just a face or something.There is nothing wrong with me,REALLY. so no worries.

but thanks for being there for me . seriously

THESE DAYS.

2012-02-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

it has been a while i have not update anything which is kind of sad really,
THESE FREE DAY OF ME HAVING FREE TIME IS YET TO BE FOUND AGAIN, IN DAYS TO COME . HEHEH. ANYWAYS, ALOT HAS HAPPEN BUT I CAN'T REALLY TELL YOU DUE TO BUSYNESS AND WELL, I AM DOING HOMEWORK WHILE I AM BLOGGING, HEHEH..

B-e-a-utiful- Megan Nicole (Original Song)

2012-01-11T20:20:00.000+08:00

A BRAND NEW YEAR "2012"

2012-01-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

It have been a very long time, i never blog anything about.but the recent new is that happen hanging out with bffl lately
it's the 'NEW YEAR of 2012' sweet isn't it,
my FRIENDSHIP HAS BEEN STRONG AND STILL GOING ( IT'S ALREADY 7 YEARS)

Hopefully, nothing and No one will break my friendship.

2011-10-29T22:18:00.003+08:00

when you smile it just make my day while you just being there made my whole day seems like a day like no other.

Karim Rashid on Color: A Powerful & Beautiful Sensorial Experience

2011-09-25T20:47:00.000+08:00

Karim Rashid - Vogue.it

2011-09-25T20:37:00.000+08:00

2011-09-19T15:06:00.001+08:00

crazy about them ,hehehe....
there are the 2pm.......

2011-09-19T15:06:00.000+08:00

crazy about them ,hehehe....
there are the 2pm.......

2011-09-16T22:20:00.001+08:00

i did this for the whole 1 hour, and hope it look nice. and relate to the topic.

2011-08-31T21:50:00.002+08:00

kenape hati ku, merasa gembira bila saya dekat dia. telalu dekat dengan dia.
dia menbuat ku gembira macam saya nak HUG dia. lol

Parachute - Forever and Always (HQ+lyrics)

2011-08-31T21:50:00.000+08:00

2day

2011-08-29T16:06:00.003+08:00

well,The past days have mellow down bit,(i mean the stress that is ) life have been somehow very sad for me cause well, i don't know what is the cause. really .. but i know i really need some cheering up. that is it. really , i guess. but for one of my project i am actually going to do a catwalk for one of my assignment . but i don't really know how it will turn out.. but hope, my group can pull it off. *fingerscross*
ermm... and i did this.

2011-08-19T21:58:00.002+08:00

Harry Potter and the Douchebag Magicians

2011-07-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

Hallows (Harry Potter Parody of Halo by Beyonce)

2011-07-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

0_0

2011-07-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

MISS HIMS AND HERS 0_0

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2011-07-12T15:25:00.000+08:00

-I can't believe , Yesterday there is a house-lizard playing peek a boo from behind a picture frame

- My life is boring and non much excitement happen, like a bucket of melted butter that is left out to just melt.

-If something did happen, it will not last long, happiness is so hard to feel somethings,there is always sadness in heart that is longing burst out at that very moment.

-My heart is fill with anger ,hatred ,love , anything or everything else that i feel. Are bottle up in inside my heart until one day i will not be able to hold it in anymore ,and that is when everything will flow out and some of the kept secret or mostly the emotional, that is kept within will hurt the ones i love .

-My family and friends are that one that help me get by everyday,the reason i am easliy bored and i don't really like being alone.THEY ARE EVERYTHING TO ME . EVERYTHING ! ! ! !

0_0 lalalalalalalalal

0_0 mmmmmmmm

0_0 Need some one to love 0_0 heheheheh!

YUP , YUP , YUP

I AM BOREDDDDDD AGAIN! ! ! ! ! !

twelveinchninja presents: don't trust me (3oh!3 cover)

2011-07-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

2011-06-26T23:49:00.002+08:00

ermm.. i kind of figured that i will never get this guy , but i am still hoping,and well, i kind of don't really know who i am, what my life stands for anymore.i need someone to talk to , but that is the thing when i get someone to talk i just don't know who to talk it out, but i sort of need someone to shout out how i feel. but i keep bottle it up ,

2011-05-24T14:49:00.002+08:00

yesterday ,
decide to watch this horror movie at 'ILUMA' cinema with one of my NAFA friend(thae nandar),but the movie was not out yet but then i can't recall the title.*laughing* So plan two.Choose a random movie,we end up choosing this movie which is call "PRIEST" but in "PRIEST 3D" it was so mega sweet movie!!!! there are only like less then 10 people and it was so freaking dark went we first got in the and she was like ermmm... it turn up so cool. ermm.

i have to go soon..

Avril Lavigne - Smile

2011-05-23T01:30:00.000+08:00

Escape

2011-05-21T01:56:00.004+08:00

How can i start,by saying that i intent to 'ESCAPE' my problem then solving it.But that is the only way i would not have a feeling of hurt in a sense that it will hurt me .

2011-05-14T01:25:00.002+08:00

so how i kind of feel bit depressed and not knowing why, maybe i just need someone who is close to me to talk or msn with . but, everyone is sleeping or tired (wait that is sort of the same thing.)I feel so sad and arghh there is to much emotions going on, and i don't know.what is happening to me,why am i being like this, my head is so mess up.. i feel like crying..

am i a good friends?
am i a good person?
i have a fear of losing everyone i love and caring
ARGH>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>...

0_0*crying inside..

2011-05-14T01:10:00.002+08:00

when the clock strike,it doesn't mean anything unless you are wait for something to happen,which now did. do people talk to you ,cause they like just what to talk , or are they just talking just to past the time.i am freaking paranoid, at time known what people will thinking of me when they are not, is that weird?

envy

2011-05-11T23:56:00.000+08:00

well,By far i'm somehow envy people who are.. ... will how do i put it .. in a relationship,people keep saying that "Be patient, your's will come soon, just be patient.(True love that is.)Ermm..see people in a relationship is sweet and all ,but yet,it so making me sick in a way.Well, looking at couple, wishing that was me, with the person i love,with is a big problem,Ermmm.Even looking at quotes,which i love so much.Is it pathetic?.well,I'm a person who love to have that slacking and relax look in style,any outfit will do,but i do have this feeling that people always judge me in a sense,that somehow make me feel so freaking paranoid,

2011-05-08T00:23:00.002+08:00

Really miss this bunch of friends,yeah ,but still if there are in the same school as me.Miss hanging out with them at school due to too busy ..

2011-05-05T00:31:00.002+08:00

somehow, life is so unfair,going to turn 20 in sept, and yet, crying is the only thing i know.And i can only hope that, my own thoughts are secret to me.Putting hope on someone that

i can't let go

2011-04-10T19:28:00.006+08:00

well,so how i can't let go of this person that i have a crush on.my friends ask me to move on ,but how can i,yes i was stupid enough to really put high hopes on him,that will never happen.i know, but i just can't let it go,i am try but he is still deep in my heart that i can't let go,i am such a pathetic girls,who can't get a boy to talk to anyway if a boy do, i will be like yup..... then nothing.lol.. anyways the only guy that i got a hug from was from the guy who break my heart at a school trip and i was cry at that time.but my friends got the guy.(long time ago)anyways it also hope to me.I'm always the one who help a friend to get them together not the type who a guy can fall in love with. i am a LOSER being a girl.

Are You An EMO? Find Your Inner Emo Here!

2011-04-04T01:05:00.000+08:00

2011-03-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

alot had happen .. like today . had friends. with nafa. poeple. after school. and then i remember of the past .. then emo in front of my friends. then i just email. s for no reason.. shit. very random...

miss you guys..

My Heart Irwansyah & Acha Septriasa

2011-02-07T14:03:00.000+08:00

P.a.r.a.n.o.i.d

2011-01-21T10:13:00.002+08:00

BEING PARANOID.PARANOID... I DON'T REALLY LIKE BEING LOOK AT. LATER I WILL BE HAVING ALOT OF NEGATIVE THINKING.WILL THAT IS HOW I AM.NOT SURE WHY,BUT I ALWAYS DO THAT and plus it seem that i never have time to do my school work .. but yet i have time to do it but my mind is somewhere else. hmm.. i don't even know. what is going on some of the time.. hmm.. what is wrong with me..

2011-01-14T20:12:00.002+08:00

years have pass,but yet it always seem to be a problem in what ever day that have past.why did i think that one day .. my prince will come. but yet . still no word but i am still waiting.anyways ,the more the day past i miss IPB students and my bffl too.. really badly .. when want to meet up?? you miss guys i want a hug .. you all.

2011 here i come

2010-12-31T21:53:00.003+08:00

well, happy that it is going to 2011,soon tonite when it pass 12 midnite..and yup. for some reason i am listening to emo/screamo songs.. while typing this.. hmmm.... not much .. holiday just chilling with sofia a couple of day then slack alone.. but with family that is .. have to think the end for my story ..which i did.. hmm... miss school and my friends..can't wait.

2011-.- here i come.....!!!!!!!!

Ina - I Wanted You (lyrics)

2010-12-14T19:23:00.000+08:00

Bullet Wound... Not A Bullet Wound?

2010-12-01T23:22:00.000+08:00

day dream is a hard habit

2010-11-27T18:01:00.003+08:00

I really admire people who can actually write on the spot meant that the ideas come to them just like that then having to thinking very long about it . unlike me i have to think of what i want to type.Well i am not that i don't want to write it down is just that i will forget or day dreaming alot. some how day dream is not a good thing,cause i am so into day dreaming ,that i intend to not heard when someone is talking to me.

so what is my problem now.i seems to being very weird and random.state really random then normal and like to always think of him. somehow it is a stupid habit now,seems like i can day dream the whole day ..really somehow it is a good thing that is where my creative is all at. daydreaming keeps my mind going,but then people say it is a very bad habit.

Avril Lavigne - Nobody's Home Lyrics

2010-11-13T00:57:00.000+08:00

i am so CONFUSED why i am crying.. and i kind of feel like this song.. but why..i am somehow losing faith in something,again i am losing something.

2010-11-11T12:50:00.000+08:00

just

2010-11-11T12:16:00.003+08:00

this is a face of a girl who has just have the greatest day with her old friends. but in a min,everything change, when a thought in her head change everything to mess her head and thought and tears just sheds and coming down her face. and all the negative thoughts about what ever she can think of became negative thoughts and somehow it seems like everything like memories and is no longer her's to keep everything seems like it is gone for good.Everyone who she known she felt like every one hate her.. and still seem like her negative thought have taken over .. rather then herself control her mind.

new entires

2010-11-02T01:03:00.003+08:00

hmm... to be frank,i know i have been busy with school. and sleepy less days.. but on sat and sun i got some sleep well.. i almost sleep the whole day. anyways.. hmm... i really miss this person. who i know don't miss me.. yup i am talking about you syah..hehehehe.. still miss you .. don;t know why. random i know. at nafa there isalot of hot guy but some how .. you are always in my mind.. and i can't get you out.. anyways school work seem like is really what to kill me.

the other him.. (great fwen)

2010-10-14T22:26:00.002+08:00

opps!!!! i have been away due to my school work..
anyways my brain keep thinking of this question ..
DO YOU REMEMBER ME??? somehow we are far apart from each other.Why do you want to "FORGET" me ,but i "DON'T" want to forget you..!!!well. i am referring to one of my great friend(who i did not know for that long but i still want to)and i was so glad to get to know him..hmm.. so how i can't tell who he is .. but i really kind of mind him and he seems to be a bit

quotes in a way

2010-09-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

-Girl:Do you like me? Boy:No Girl:Would you cry if i died? Boy:No Girl Runs away crying Boy:I dont like you i love you i wouldnt cry if u died i would kill myself

-Girl; how much do you love me? Boy; look up at the sky. Girl: don't change the subject! Boy: just do it! Girl, okay what am I doing? Boy: count how many stars there are? Girl: impossibe. Boy: and so is explaining my love for you<3

update for 10 SEPT 2010

2010-09-19T12:20:00.002+08:00

well, on the 10SEPTEMBER2010
was my birthday and it was the first of hari raya too..
anyway thanks to the my friends,cuz&'Him'for wishing me.. hehehe.. <3<3 me happy bithday thanks.. and to them wwho given me a present..and money.and well, i still got cake(chocolate cake)but, after that it went down hill.

I GOT SICK -.-!!!

anyways it was sad cause i have to stay in bed and i can't eat anything due to my tastebuts are weird totally...well, anyways this year is not happening.. cause idid not get to go out with friends to jalan raya due to school.and being sick..and i miss out going out with him this year .. heheh(in my little stupid dreamthat will happen)lol. anyways. selamat hari ray to people that i LOVE and friends that i CARE and DON'T CARE(hehe).

2010-09-19T12:12:00.000+08:00

i can't believed that i spend my term break by staying in bed .. but on 2 to 3 day only that i go out only.. and like this year is so boring cause i can't go jalan raya. cause i have to go to sch.. fcuk. right..!!! hmm.. money form raya.is going to run out cause i brought clothes and my new pillow(it is a must). and well,i can't drink or eat alot of things and really it suck.!!! and i just want to hang out with friends..
(ps: thanks to you guys who wish me one my birthday .. about birthday with be updating soon )

till the day i suffer..

2010-09-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

well, i have been busy and well,can't be blame cause i have been doing my school work like crazy .. anyways ..miss the people who know. me.. and miss him.. lol..hahaha. anyways i almost fall after i wake up from sleeping in school. and all. i doing homework at 12 till 4 like that then sleep at 5 and then wake up at 7 then headed to school.. doing my assignment cause of the due date. homework is my worst night mare but i am happy we having term break soon..but still have to come to school and redo my work till i get a grade a,b or c.. mostly.hopefully . can.. anyways i want to sleep now... nitez...
(miss someone)
nitez baby boo(junsu)lol.. random...
saranghae ... everyone.. nitez..

xoxoxoxoxoxox

baybeats....

2010-08-22T20:58:00.001+08:00

21 aug 2010
it was the best night, i went with atikah my friend and ema... and it rock my world!!!!!!!

2010-08-17T20:59:00.001+08:00

my two hot 2pm guys....... omg....

2010-08-16T23:24:00.002+08:00

MY DAY WAS SO HECTIC THAT IS REALLY KIND OF BOGUS CAUSE OF I'M BEING SO TIRED AND NOW THAT MY MY IS BLANK.. AND I DOING REALLY KNOW WHAT I AM THINKING REALLY... JUST KNOW THE MODEL MAKING CLASS IS ACTUALLY LIKE ART AND CRAFT MORE THEN 3D DESIGN SORT OF WAY.. BUT IT WAS FUN. MAKING TREES OUT OF PAPER.. HMM.. I SO HAVE TO FINISH ALL OF MY WORK...

ARGH him!!!!!

2010-08-10T22:22:00.003+08:00

HEY, I WAS OMG..!!! WHY YOU MAY ASK .. CAUSE THERE WAS THIS TWO HOT HOT SECOND YEAR GUYS THAT MAKE ME REMIND ME ABOUT him!..... YUP him. HMM..... MY BRAIN IS IN A BLANK.... UT I CAN ONLY THINK OF him him him him him him

IS IT WRONG TO THINK OF HIM?
IS IT WRONG TO THINK OF HIM AS A CRUSH??
IS IT WRONG THAT YOU CAN'T FORGET HIM..???/
IS IT.???? SO WHY CAN'T I GET HIM OUT OF MY MIND..
AGRH.... I HAVE TO FOCUS ON SCHOOL WORK BUT STILL I AM STILL REMINDED OF HIM....
WHY AM I GOING CRAZY... HELP.....

2010-08-09T21:18:00.003+08:00

happpy birthday to yin xian...

(read this with an British accent).. thanks..

well to be frank, i am so screwed now about my homework that is given by my dear lectures.. and i am only back today and i am not that sure if i have enough time to finish my homework in time to hand in.. hmmm... what to do.. lol.. do my work la.. dah.. hahaha

miss him..miss him miss him miss him.. he is always in my head snap...miss him Miss him

well miss my bestie . but don't think i have any free time any soon.. so..

2010-08-04T22:52:00.000+08:00

snap have not time to blog .. busy with school...

2010-07-21T20:48:00.002+08:00

it have been 3 days that i have start schooling at nafa(nanyang academy of fine arts)first day was so blur of finding the class and made friends.and the everyone seems os work up just on the very frist day .. but now we are all okoko.. got lecture and stuff but the days seem tobe okok.. just normal. and i am so tired ..

photos of today.

2010-07-18T21:53:00.003+08:00

2010-07-18T21:30:00.003+08:00

17 July
having the greatest day by hanging out with the girls plus kelvin and well, just hanging out for a few hours will do. for me to and have dinner together. that was fun. and i am always eat more then i can chew. (ice cream ) shiyun don't fancy mango ice cream so i disturb her lol.. we took alot of picture and'RANDOMS'ones too.. just have to wait for Ema to upload it at Facebook . CAN'T WAIT TO SEE IT!!!and at at the times where we are about to head home we have a so call photo-shoot. and it was so crowd people are walking pass us and some still can laugh at us..lol.. it was so fun. reach home before my mum and the rest did. and then got a call and head out again to have a bite to eat .. at sedap corner and this guy when i enter wearing black inside and the purple jacket outside and wearing the Adidas perfume that i have to get a new one. anyways whit a thick white hair bend. and i was like smile not that wide(i think) and when we are seated at the table, the guy pass me the menu and he have this wide smile like really wide . and i was like what is up with him.. but i am smile back. lol.. the chef was chef bob. and wow he is big, different then in the television . but the food is so nice.. and it cost $16.30 dollars if i am not wrong. but i was full before

videos.)bored)

2010-07-16T17:52:00.002+08:00

(i like this video)

I can read it , can You?

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7 signs your crush likes you

2010-07-16T17:44:00.000+08:00

How to tell if he likes u

2010-07-16T17:41:00.000+08:00

20 Signs Of A Crush

2010-07-16T17:27:00.000+08:00

HOW MUCH

2010-07-12T10:42:00.002+08:00

HOW MUCH DO YOU PEOPLE THINK THIS PAINTING COST????

friendships

2010-07-08T16:51:00.001+08:00

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my blog video update

2010-07-06T14:49:00.002+08:00

MY dream phone!!!!!!!

2010-06-24T21:57:00.001+08:00

samsung cordy pro... my dream phone!!!

2010-06-21T13:15:00.001+08:00

i so miss this poeple in the photo. miss the old times and bad/good times..

2010-06-20T13:30:00.002+08:00

19 june 2010

well, yesterday when to changi to have family time. but end up .. caught in th downpour and it really seems fun at first but then i got so cool.. being in the wet clothes which is on my body and we left changi at about 6 plus the when to a birthday party.. then me being a kid. ate alot and i saw sweet and i took them and ate . it all at once. randomly.. knowing that is a stupid move .. and i was play with glow stick,lots of them .and not ending up going home. when to swensens .. to eat ICE Cream.. swensens seem to be my second home ..so to speak .. but we were so full from changi and the party . but still i can resist. order the walnut rocky road. is was delicious!!! and then head home. at about 1 plus .. then the adults when out and came back at 2 .15 while me being at home and all. the one thing i do most is to watch tv . watching animax .. :stigma of the wind... till.3o'clock then i head to bed!

upload picture soon...

random entires

2010-06-17T22:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday night,
it was to early to sleep which was like at 1 o'clock.and everyone seem to have already sleeping and scary to be alone at the living .so i head to bed, but i was just laying there in the dark sleeping near the window,staring at the wall and the radon thing come to my mind. is that i thought of my dear ALIF. you know him.. anyways .. he was the so call the one who talking when we all have nothing to say when we were eat at the canteen or anywhere. lol. anyways being honest i really kind of him. but seems to be just a memories. cause he is just busy with his stuff like everyone is .. but hmm.. he nvr seems to talk on fb..so yet ..
i miss alif
i miss lola
i miss ema
i miss jo
i miss nana
i miss miz
i miss syam
i miss syah
i miss shiyun
i miss mad
i miss my friends from ite..i truely miss ite life.. then by just doing nothing at home..

damn this entries is so random.. really .. and hmm... i can't upload my new pictures... sad sey..

lol

2010-06-09T11:29:00.002+08:00

8 june 2010

there was something funny that make me and my little brother .. laugh so hard but not that loud.well,there was a guy and a lady in his/her 20s or 30s Chinese,broad the bus at different bus-stops. anyways the lady sit next the window the opposite side and the guy behind her shift and sit in-front, i am so listening to some tunes in my mp4 well, my little brother still looking at them. and he keep disturbing me about it..he say "sis the guy is making his move on her".!!!then i stop and we watch them secretly.!!! lol.. and in the blue, the guy took out this small black notebook and pen then tore the paper and wrote his number. and he waited and pass the lady her no. and we were like laugh.. and then me and my bro say to each other .." dia kene reject.. lol.." then we laugh... then we keep looking at them.. who are stranger to each other.. but then i told my little bro .. "the guy new scandal...lol..but then the lady took the number.. and the guy was happy .. by the look of his hand..lol... he was laughing and saying yes in silent .. lol.. went he got off the bus, by the lady looks she was so happy that he left!!!!!lol... and then plus she is wearing a ring on her right second last finger.. or is it the third??? anyways .. we laugh .. till we alight.. that is all.. lol

hate of cockroaches

2010-06-03T11:35:00.002+08:00

once again i am here for an update.

i hate cockroaches. cause of 4 in accident that have something to do with the cockroaches.!! every time in a random moment i would see and shout not a the top of my high voice just a normal shout to indent that there is a cockroaches and cause of that i got scold afterwards.and some more, the closer in contact. is that, the THING crawl right across my feet and it is so argh!!!! and then some more i am like washing the dishes some more!! and some more the bee was on my t-shirt and i stop and crawl to the living-room and then before i hit the ground and hit the refrigerator very hard thank god that it did not fall on me. lol.. and i shout and ask someone to take the bee out. and i stand there and i cry..!!!!!!lol .. the highlight of me hating of cockroaches.

make it stop!!!

2010-06-01T15:55:00.002+08:00

my mind seems to be so mess up really.. and only ema know what i am talking about.thinking alot for this past week. and it seems to be in my head and don't what to change a topics. and it is always the same thing, and plus is about 3 someones.. OMG.. make the thinking stop!!!! agrh.i am still thinking about it.

2010-06-01T15:32:00.003+08:00

it seems that i am still alone in a sense that i will only know.yet,it seems that people that i know are NOT growing close to me but far from me.that is how i am feeling and seeing and my mind keep thinking that it will keep it like that and forever be like that. it will be hard to prove me wrong. cause it is the truth and the facts that how i am feeling right now.well, that means that the feelings will be staying for a long as it wants and well, the memories will be kept away and will never seem to be the same like the past.july school will be starting for me. anyways, i seems to be happy when i am out with you .but the down side i am keeping something that seems to be better to be kept inside.like what poeple said do you think we all are happy in the real life or just wearing a mask!! is better to keep what we don't want to say out loud.

being honest

2010-05-24T11:57:00.002+08:00

frankly, being honestly..i kind of miss my best friend for life.sounds a bit lame .. yeah i know. but i am kind of really feel really sad that we are growing apart ,when i need her is she there for me ,likewise for my part. but really, had a hard time cause this time i need her . and somehow i said something wrong that make her.piss off but it really make me shed tears when she said that i was not the only one who got problem. anyways seems like i thought that my problem is mega huge. but now it seem that it is nothing anymore.. i will have to just solve my own problems and just keep it to my self. and well, it seems that time have been to fast for me that people are moving to fast,and seems to be that friendship that is so growing apart . and it seems that i sure just have to move on .. or just wait???? i really don't know what to do... cause my head is totally blank the past few days ..the day i quit my job. and thinking that can spend time with her . but she is to busy with work. and seems that i just have to wait!!!

LOVE JANG GEUN SEOK......

2010-05-22T20:38:00.006+08:00

I SO IN LOVE WITH JANG GEUN SEOK ....... ............
OPPA!!!

THE KOREAN DRAMA THAT MAKE ME LIKE HIM.. IS
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL....OMG HE SEEM TO BE THE HOTTEST BAD BOY THAT IS SOMEHOW SWEET IN THE DRAMA.. BUT I STILL WANT TO KNOW WHO IS HE REALLY LIKE .. NOT IN THE DRAMA BUT HIMSELF.. LOL.. HMMM.... TO BAD THAT I CAN MEET HIM... ( THAT WILL BE SO COOL)... ANYWAYS..LOL...HE IS SO HOT..AND SO CUTE ...SO LOVING HIM.. IN THE DRAMA...!!!!!!

HEART JANG GEUN SEOK!!!

movies/drama
-you're beautiful
-baby and me
-Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do

today korean was the best!!!!!

2010-05-20T23:26:00.003+08:00

hmm.. today feel like watching Korean new drama.(title: you're beautiful) and i so love the song A.N.jell./.. love it to the max and and i watch till the end.. wow. if that happen to me.. sweet... !!!! and hmmm... i love the song without you!!!..lol and hot

HELP ANYONE!!!

2010-05-18T21:55:00.005+08:00

HMM... THE SMILE OF A FRIEND IS THE LAST THINK I SAW FROM ANDREW FACE .LOL. HMM... WELL,I AM JUST HAPPY THAT I HAVE MAKE A FRIEND WITH HIM..SOMETHING JUST BUGS ME.. HMM... HE HAVE BEEN MIA .. TILL NOW ..SAD FOR ME.. LOL.. HMM.. WAIT I AM SERIOUS.. ANDREW CRAP!!! SEY .. BLUEK!!! DAMN HE IS NOT EVEN AT WORK ON MY LAST DAY..!!! LAME ..LA. I STILL OWE HIM .SOME OF MY TIME CAUSE HE WAIT FOR ME THAT TIME. AND HE WAS NOT EVEN THERE ON THAT DAY.. SAD. JUST WANT TO ASK HIM OUT FOR DINNER TOGETHER. I OWE HIM THAT MUCH . CAUSE HE WAITED... SO HMMM... I STILL FEEL GUILT!!! I KIND OF STILL MISS HIM CAUSE OF THE IRRITATING MOMENTS OF TELLING ME THE TIME OF OUR END OF THE SHIFT.!HMM... DAMN.. STUPID ANDREW.. ARGH.. YOUR IRRITATING DAYS AT WORK REALLY ARE STARTING TO GROW ON ME..AND I DARE NOT CALL HIM .. DO YOU THINK HE CHANGE HIS NUMBER???I SCARY THAT IS IT HIM .. BUT HOW SEY .LIKE THAT ... I KEEP SMSING HIM .. SCARY IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG TOWARD HIM.. OR HE SEEM TO BE A WEIRD WHEN I WAS REALLY CLOSE THAT TIME WITH THIS GUY NAME HAIKEL. HMM.... AND THE WAY HE SEEMS TO ASK ABOUT MY BREAK TIME AND ASKING IF I WOULD LIKE TO GO AND GRAD A BITE WITH HIM FOR DINNER WHICH IS AT 5.HMM... WHAT DOES THAT MEAN I HAVE NOT CLUE .. I AM SO CLUE LESS NOW.. HOW SEY.??? ANYONE FREE ... I AM BORED AT HOME.LA.. LOL.. AND ANYWAYS SHOULD I CALL HIM TOMMORRO TO CONFIRM THAT THAT IS HIS NUMBER??? HELLP ..ANYONE GIVE ME ADVICE. HE IS A COOL FRIEND.. AND SWEET IN A WAY!!!!> HE IS IN MY BLANK SPACE OUT MIND NOW..!!!!!!!

THAT IS WHAT MY HEART IS ASKING ME TO TYPE.!!!

2010-05-18T21:26:00.001+08:00

2010-05-13T10:02:00.002+08:00

hmm.. well damn all of my friends are smokers .. and andrew ask me either i have to start smoking just to join their click.. lol. then i say no. la.. oh . yeah .. there are 2 more malay guys and one of them is product design . what a small world .and he is 18 and the other one is 17 and their names are haikel and Z. yup. so i have 5 friends .and they are a unforgettable friends. lol. and .. yesterday was so tired . cause at my work they are having this sale and i was like running everywhere .. but i can't say that i am really really tired cause my full time is more worst . 10 am to 9.30pm.
i just 2pm to 10.30pm i got all of my work friends no.. at less i can contact them .. happy.!!!!! lol.. ok i have to go .. later i forget to go to work i die..!!!lol...

2010-05-12T10:18:00.002+08:00

11 may2010
i can't believe i forget to go and have a bite with one of my work friend,OMG,can't believe it he was waiting for me, and i was so busy with my work then my head was totally blanks.sorry andrew..damn but then he forgive me.. lol..anyways.. i make friends with 3 people only.. lol.. at work. at my leg is in pain.. cause to much standing ..lol.. anyways . i really miss my friends just hangout with them.. i know that noone at work will miss me.. one.so yup..hmmm.... got to go .. and bath and everything before i have to go to work

2010-05-11T09:46:00.002+08:00

wow, i have been busy from the first day i start working .and i make friends too.. lol. the guys at who i thought is older is younger then me..lol. and ways i am okok. soon after i no longer working. i hanging out with my friends just window shopping and stuff . hopefully they are free and i also have to be free on that day. and ways i miss just slacking at home. lol. and i was bored at work cause it was so quiet. and this guy who is my friend but i never ask him what is his name.. funny right. i got a friend who i thought is a boy buy is actually a girl . and every one is trying to figure her him/her out. hmm.. but overall she is okok. but the weird thing is that she have alot of pretty girl friends. in her phone. so no wonder people thought her as a mix. but se is that type that if you start talking to her . you will have to cut her off before you can stop talking ..and

[currently , i relies that i have alot of friends who smoke. but hmm.. who cares is they are a smoker?i don't. i am friends with them is cause .. for who they are. not cause of other stuff.]

damn i have to remember that i miss out alot . and well, i still have to get really for work soon ...
yup.finally i going to updated my blog ..
(no one cares i know..)

freaking out

2010-04-29T00:20:00.001+08:00

damn , i can't believe that i am going to start work soon and i am damn scared. i am new to this and i so don't have any skill. damn.. help me.. argh... i am so freaking out .damn. and i ask a friend to join me but .. still no answer.. damn. thanks.and i think i ask her first about this job if she want to join or not and she say anything.and now, but argh.. anyways .. damn. i am not that confident.how am i going to do this by myself argh...!!!!! HOW.. damn it.. i can't communicate
that well with anyone that i don't know.. damn it.. i don't have the guts .. but hopefully i well have to try tomorrow ..and give it my best .. hopefully it is not that hard. and arghh.. i must have the guts to work..and suffer before i can get the easy way.

movie day with them

2010-04-26T12:35:00.002+08:00

on the 25 April
spend my time with my fun bunch of friends yesterday(juraima,shiyun,warren and jun long) went out for a movie day and then just chill out for awhile.so the meeting place was at woodlands.i was like Woodlands....sigh... lol (so far,almost end to another end ) anyways. meet up with them at 3 plus which was suppose to be at 2.30 yup.anyways, thought of what movie to watch , so i thought shutter island will be a get show (i thought it would be scaring )but after watching till the end. i thought it was averge.. an like what shiyun say O.M.F.G. lol.anyways come to think about it .. the show was 3 over 5 why cause it was about hard to understand the story. and the scary part is not that scary just of the sound effect it mean it look scarying. no wonder not much people was in the cinema. and it was super super cool till someone have to put their feet on the cinema sit. lols. and after watching went when to mac just to chill and have an ice cream in that matter. and we were talking and laughing and more laughing . then went to the library.for so reason i don't like the library so much .cause it was to quiet.lol. then take pictures with shiyun will the rest find a book. to read. then after that when home

home sweet home and i fall asleep..!!!
lols.

!!!!!!!!!have a great last day to hangout with them cause well , i have my reasons..!!!

2010-04-23T13:55:00.002+08:00

emo friend is being too emo!!

2010-04-23T12:58:00.003+08:00

just trying to blog about stuff.. siting on the couch not like i am jumping on the couch..lol. talking to one of my friend who being to EMO. today.. so yup! well, emo looks so rockz.. my world. and hopefully my emo friend is feeling normal. lol..

2010-04-21T17:27:00.002+08:00

well, have been improving my sketch and creative on design and art. well basically, i am still wait for nafa . i hope that i would really get the school. an di am having a problem on being creative in my mind in art.. argh!!! my mind is killing me to think about very arty looking pictures. i am passing my time to do something else . like giggling to myself hmmm... that is so weird for me to do. and well.. hmm... well..

2010-04-19T12:53:00.003+08:00

well, have the guts to watch some show about zombies and well, i was watching zombieland which was so funny and gruesome at the some time...and the ending was lol.. hahahha... so yeah.. good show.

2010-04-19T12:26:00.000+08:00

2010-04-19T12:19:00.002+08:00

hmm.. my friends are starting school and i am still waiting for the result at nafa.. hmm... my life is so lame and yeah .. i don't like to work. lol. true what my friends say . atikah .work.. lol..hahaha.. that is what they say. so yeah.. random so random..hmm....

2010-04-18T21:02:00.001+08:00

the A_E_J_S. miss hanging with them..

2010-04-16T17:41:00.002+08:00

My life is boring on a currently basics.but on the filpside i have great friends to hee up and and do stuff like how friends suit do. so lean on me..!! listening to the song now.. from the sow glee. which is like my favourite show.. cn't upload photo. that is just bogus!!!

when the thought get dangerous!!!!

2010-04-15T23:21:00.004+08:00

on the 14 April 2010.
overall:
i can't believe i almost got run over by a car not once but twice the other one was at the car park in front of my house and have an L sign,why?was i so caught up with my thoughts!!! well it was my fault that i have to much to think about..~!!!!!

on 15 April 2010
overall:
got to hang with my girls.the E.J.S
and i REALLY miss them.
they are the bunch of people who rock the group that i hang with!
so hang with them 7 hour plus .if i not wrong.and got pictures but i can't upload. despite to my Nokia handphone is gone lost ..lol
and since we are going to be busy soon with our own stuff
but in the filpside we will totally keep hanging out whenever we are free!!!!..
keep rocking yeah people !!! and too my best friend please get well soon . ok..
get well soon to me too.....!!!

then have the time to do my own remix song which was thought by my brother!!!!
thanks bro.. i am having fun with it... !!!!WOWWWWW..... mix up1 and mix up 2 .. done .for fun.. wuhuu...

2010-04-11T12:11:00.002+08:00

-when ever i piss off i intent to just take the scissors and cut my hair.(crazy i know)
-being random nowadays and lazy to update.
-thinking all the time
-but now my mind is blank out
-MISS MY DEAR FRIENDS

mind is blank

2010-04-11T11:53:00.002+08:00

Basically i am sick for about two to three days now.and i really HATE being sick non stop coughing day and night. Happy that i am able to contact one of my old friends. that i truthfully miss.and well,i miss all my friends. basically i don't have anyting to type . sorry .. my mind is damn blank!!

2010-04-06T20:25:00.002+08:00

well, i haven't been updating the blog so .. i am going to update now!!!

so i decide to like enroll for nafa recently. because i have no any other poly to go too.and well ,i am going crazy thinking about the test and i am going to have on 14 April.and i have to like pay $85 .. so i can't quit now.so i just have to go for it..any one what to follow me..??? lol.. and i have to stuff all the stuff about the school. and i am so hoping that i can get in the course.. (furniture Design).. and i freaking piss off with my stupid freaky big brother. he always like to pick fights with me. damn it .. if he never pick fight with me i will never get scolded with my mum. step older then me. so it is all my fault la.. whatever la.. he really don't act like a brother. he act like a stupid careless brother...argh..!!!!! once again he pick a fight with me. and guess what i get scold again. and he still continued and when i continued i am the once who . get scold.. AGRH!!!!! i so hope. that i get the school cause i still what to farther my studies then going for work life ..

2010-03-21T21:51:00.002+08:00

yesterday,went out with the whole family to celebrate my grandpa birthday.! OMG .. NO!!!! eating at nana thai restaurant again ... the i end up eating at plain rice and prawn and lemon chicken only for some reason the food there i ate a bit and i give it to my brother. my stomach is so how sensitive nowadays.and when i finish eating . i feel a bit sick.!! and then when for a walk at orchard and then when ion. and we ate ice cream and they are like showing a show at ion on the big screen. and we watch for awhile and head back. (ps: saw alot of american hotties!)

20 march2010

wow, today wake up and watch ghost show at sensasi. and then head out to have breakfast then we were about to head home when the road toward changi was block course of they got cycling thing on today and all. so when had to go some went else. so we when to mount faber and this one nature place..lol.. then at 2 head home.. and (i was always thinking of someone)lol.. random .much... the when reach home i was sleepy but i wastch still watching tv..lol
that is all..

so yeah.. boring right ..i know.

atikah signing out.

checking this up on google..

2010-03-19T22:33:00.002+08:00

how to know if he likes you..check on goggle.com

Steps

1Examine his body language.

If he likes you, you may see that he rarely turns his back to you, often leans towards you, and also looks at you a lot. If he slouches his shoulders when near you, he's romantic and cares about what you have to say. If he points his shoulders and pelvis towards you while sitting, he is definitely feeling something for you.

2Notice his eye contact.

If he likes you, he may either look away quickly if he is shy, or he'll try to catch your eye and hold it or make faces. This can be uncomfortable if you don't like him. If you feel like you have held eye contact just a fraction of a second longer than you would with anyone else, or if he looks away quickly, then there is something there. When he's around you and he says/does something funny and everyone around laughs, his eyes will flicker towards you for a second to see if you laughed, too.

His pupils may dilate if he likes you, but this is quite hard to pick up on, and you might come across as acting strangely by looking that closely into his eyes. If you're around him for a long time, it could be easier to pick up on gradually.

3Listen to what he's saying.

If he likes you, and he's nervous, he'll probably start talking about himself. Many times, guys feel the need to prove themselves- especially if you talk about another guy in his company.

4Be aware of touching.

He might put his hand on your arm when he laughs, and won't move his leg if it happens to touch yours, or he may hug you for small things - all are good signs of a guy liking you, unless he's a bit of a "playboy" who flirts with a lot of girls. See if he uses any of the tricks in How to Touch a Girl, and see if he uses them more with you than with anyone else.

5Watch his actions around other girls and see if he treats you differently.

Some guys flirt with other girls to get your attention. It gives them a chance to see your reaction, and helps them know if you really do like them or not. You can tell that they are trying to make you jealous if they find little times when they're flirting with the other girl to look at you. His eyes will flick over and look at you. Another sign is that when you leave, he stops flirting with the other girl. That will be a harder one to pick up on, but you can have a friend look for you or something like that. You have to be sneaky sometimes to find out if a guy likes you.

6Watch for him showing interest in things you like and do.

For example, if you like a certain genre of music that he likes as well, he may suggest bands or artists for you to listen to. Another example, if you play sports he may ask to play against you just to show off that he's good at something you both like and then also have a reason to give you compliments as well.

7Check for signs of nervousness Nervous laughter, sweaty palms, deep breaths, fidgeting, looking away quickly when you notice if he is watching you are all good signs of an attraction towards you and that he is nervous about making an impression on someone he fancies.

8Pay attention to his friends.

If they know he's interested in you, they might tease him subtly when you're around, hint to you that he likes you, or even try to find out if you like him. Study their reactions to your presence - do they smile? Do they turn to him? Do they smirk in a way that suggests they know something that you don't?

9Don't ignore him If he shows genuine interest in you, (i.e. smiles at you a lot in the hallway, work, etc., at least go out for a walk.)

10Look to see if he imitates you If he mimics you, he probably likes you, such as, if you move to another table, he'll go with you.(I've had a guy who liked me mimic me before, so I know this is one thing)

11Teasing If a guy teases you a lot, it might mean he likes you, but if he doesn't tease any other girl, he probably does like you.

12Hitting A guy may hit you but it's just flirting he probably just wants to see your smile i have had a few guys that will hit me that like me. You may find it annoying if you're not into him, but otherwise if you hit back then that's a way then he can know that you like him back!

13Compliments .

If you do your hair or makeup differently one day, and the guy notices, that's a very good sign that he likes you. Most guys won't notice, and if they do, they won't say anything unless they're into you. Anything like, "You look nice today," "I like that shirt," or even "Did you do your hair differently today? It looks nice," are all indicators that he could be interested in you. NOTE: If he's a good friend of yours, these won't necessarily be indicators of romantic interest. It could just be him being a good friend.

random of a thought...

2010-03-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

the sky is wide
the earth is round
but that does not mean
you can't let your talent out to the world
like the new born baby
that had it first look of the world
shyness is a thing that is hard to get over it
when everyone is happy they smile
so just like to some tunes and relax

PISS OF

2010-03-17T07:56:00.003+08:00

STUPID ..SHIT ... MY PHONE SIM CARD HAVING PROBLEM AND I CAN'T REMEMBER EMA NO. COZ I MEETING HER.. THEN HOW .... ARGH!!!! WHY TODAY.. I CAN'T REMEMBER ALL MY FRIENDS NO.. HOW.... ARGH!!!!!DAMN IT..!!!!PISS OFF NOW..HELP....aAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
AAAAAAA
AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGG
GGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH... JUST MINE LUCK ......
THE SIM CARD ID THE BLOODY PROBLEM ..LA...!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-03-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

today,i watched the UGLY truth and Nightmare (Gawi) Korean Movie...so yeah.. the horror movie was so gruesome..and i shout a couple of times.. but it was ok.. and that is what i did for today... lol. i am try to learn japanese lauguage and all.. my mum learn it coz it is somehow part of work. so she give me the papers ... so yeah..lame la.. lol

emo rocks..!!!!!

2010-03-14T22:38:00.002+08:00

hmm... lol.. ema .haha . i was just bored. well, i have been away from the laptop lately, today,evening went to Seoul garden to eat.hmm.. yeah. i ate alot.and plus alot of Chinese guys with they hair just the way i like they hair to be(emo type of hair )lol..but sadly they are younger then me.hmm.. oh yeah. damn, the i just get to know that my usb cable to my phone can't use.. shit right.. i just wanted to put pics in this updated. hmm.. lame la.. shit .. no wonder i can't put song in my mp3... bad luck la.. aghh!!!!!! updated . more tmr.. yeah..
tired ..